I just wanna say this,I have many many tattoos and many years of getting tattooed and by many artists,I started when I was about 25 and I am 59 now,
I am still getting tattoos,
and ,well,I still get tattoo remorse,regret,etc,etc,what ever the F*** you want to call it,to this day !
it goes away,maybe takes a month,maybe takes a week,once the pain of the $600 or $1500 I just spent goes away,I am thinking of my next tattoo,
and all is good in my world again.
You are right, its NOT healthy. Don't hate me for saying this but why does it have to have some deep meaning? From what I see, it looks cool. I would invite you to consider exploring other areas of your world that may not be aligned...is this misdirected frustration at someone/something else? I would offer that a bunch of us have tattoos that break "rules". But hey, if you don't like it, you don't like it. It's not a bad tattoo though!