an_inhaler

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  1. It's beautiful! But you know it anyway since you know your feelings are not based on reality. To give you some comfort, my anxiety passed quite quickly. Now, two and a half years ago, I fully love my tattoo and it makes me feel so much better in my body. It's a beautiful part of me now and I can't imagine I just had a bare arm once :). I even got a second big tattoo right on my chest from a different artist. I didn't have the same anxiety right away but a couple of months after getting it I was going through a difficult period so it hit me. Now I just realize it's like that for me with all big changes: I might want it, I might like it, but it is still going outside my comfort zone, so anxiety is natural and it just takes time to accept these things as a part of your new comfort zone. Hope it happens soon for you, my inked buddy! In the meantime, getting support from the community reeeaaaaaaaally helps :).
  2. Hi Emily! Your tattoo is beautiful! I also got my first one and joined the forum recently, and I am also very happy about finding this place because I have absolutely no one with any interested in tattoos among my friends. Welcome!
  3. @Lucy83, I am in Leiden, and I only moved to the Netherlands a year ago, so I didn't even now where Den Bosch is before I looked it up
  4. Thanks, @El Dolmago! I am worrying less about this now. But I was really surprised to find out that sometimes students give bad evaluations to their professors because of the tattoos. Seriously, guys?
  5. Yes, I don't think there are a lot of people with tattoos in the Netherlands. Where do you live here, @Lucy83?
  6. Hi @PinkUnicorn, I live in the Netherlands now, which is probably the most tolerant country in general. I work in a very international environment now. But I have no idea where I will be in 3 years when my current contract will be over (I do not have a European passport so I won't be able to stay unless I have a job).
  7. I agree, I would not expect any negative attitude towards tattoos in academia, that's why I didn't even think about that before getting one. After that, I started thinking about all possible negative consequences of that (literally ALL, you cannot even imagine what crazy thoughts were in my head). And on one website I read somebody saying that it is a very bad idea to get a big visible tattoo if you are a university teacher. And some woman working in academia wrote in her blog that if somebody is not going to hire her because of her tattoos, then maybe it is not a place for her anyway. So, I thought, there might be this problem! Being in a very fragile state of mind, I over-generalized it of course. That is what I often tend to do: focus on some negative possibilities that are only in my head and worrying worrying worrying about them. So yes, I have some anxiety issues in general. The transition to being a tattooed person for some reasons for me was much harder than I could expect it to be, and it magnified all my worries. I've also had some kind of a personality crisis recently, it doesn't help either. But I am so much better now already, especially during the day time. Mornings and evenings seem to be difficult times in this respect for me. I am starting to accept my new look and I like it very much. Thank you for your support a lot, people! I hope that soon I'll stop whining here for good.
  8. Thanks a lot, @Gingerninja! Compliments help too =)
  9. I completely agree: do it if you want it. All the things have different meanings for different people. Math does not make me feel ill and I also find the Platonic solids fascinating although I don't know a thing about them =). So I would absolutely love your tattoo! And you have more than enough reasons to have polyhedra on you.
  10. Yes, I think it has even more meaning for me than I initially realized. And it being on my arm is the biggest problem: it is too visible both for me and for the people around. But from the very beginning, I wanted it to be visible for me and I didn't care much for the people around (until I actually got the tattoo and started reading on the internet how tattoos are perceived in the academic world. It was a bad idea, don't ever do it!). But the community here is amazing and I am very glad I am a part of it now!
  11. Thanks, @Makar! I do like my tattoo. It makes me very happy when I am not panicking =). Then I just remember why I did it and it al makes sense. It is just so very new for me. It's been only a week! It is also itchy now so I am constantly paying attention to it. I think it will also be better when it heals completely.
  12. I wonder if there are any people who couldn't ever overcome this feeling
  13. Thanks, guys! @Lucy83, yes, I think that it holds for me too. I still cannot believe that this thing is actually ON me. Looking at it in the mirror or in the photo is definitely easy than looking at it directly. @el twe, here is my tattoo. It is on my userpic as well. The photo was taken by the artist right after the tattooing. I think it is beautiful and magical but oooooh it is much bigger than I thought it would be. In general, I think I am starting to feel a little bit better now. At least I do not wake up in the middle of the night. Now it is just these panic attacks in the morning and in the evening =). I feel very silly because of all that.
  14. A tip for all the future panicking readers: meditation helps! Just put on the first 18 hours of relaxing music and shit from youtube and breath for 8 minutes. Brings you back to the present. Phew, it feels good. I probably need to do it at least 10 times per day now. As @Hands On said, That is so true. Do you know me? =) Yeah, what's done is done, I am enjoying it and I am ready for the journey. oh my god I am unstable