subdermal

I don't have an immediate family and still have trouble finding time to fit everything in, drawing, painting, appointments, sometimes even eating and sleeping. I try to break my appointments down into two categories, ones I have to study and prep for, and ones I can draw on the day of. I don't worry about the same day drawings until that day, out of sight out of mind. I've been tattooing for about four years now, and I still feel that I have a LOT to learn, and at this point I'm not able to sit down and just draw whatever, though I highly admire and respect those who can. Some things take me quite a bit of time to compose, so I have to spread them out over a couple days. I sacrificed most of my night life when I got into this. It's my belief that since my customer is entrusting me with their canvas, and indirectly, their life, I owe it to them to do the best that I can. Being hungover or just generally shitty from being out too late the night before is not fair to my customer. I almost feel my situation is opposite to you guys, I feel that since I don't have a family, I should be drawing, painting, studying, and just getting better every free minute I have, and I almost feel guilty if I'm not haha. The actual act of tattooing is where I can get away from all that, where I can recenter. When I'm tattooing, that's where all the customer drama, all the shop drama, all the "am I good enough" thoughts, everything just disappears and I'm in my little world. That's my free time, that's my hobby, that's my love, that's what makes it all worth it.