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Actually wrote today, which turned out well. Just a couple really short pieces, but still writing.

I think I mentioned this elsewhere, but a girl at work asked me if I liked watercolor tattoos, and I said no and explained why. She didn't know that they would fade, and seemed to be open to discussion about tattoos which was cool. She's also a painter, so I think she's actually into watercolor paintings.

The odd thing about this discussion is that tattoo flash is done in watercolor. Flash is just meant for tattoos and skin.

Thanks, @iowagirl , I definitely need it.

Thanks, @hollyjoybee . I'm pretty sure I'm at rock bottom. Definitely the worst situation I've been in during my usage.

The response on here is amazing. I don't know what to say. Thanks, everyone. Also, I don't think it would be a bad idea to make a recovery thread. I just made my assessment appointment for Friday. Looks like there's a 2-4 week 6 day/week program. It's an outpatient program, which is nice. Then there's a continued 12 week long program that they give based on results in the former.

This is there website (the website is a bit outdated according to the guy I talked to on the phone): The Sequoia Center

@Breakme

@SeaSea @Zillah @Mark Bee @HaydenRose @Boiled Dove @TrixieFaux @irezumi @CultExciter @Colored Guy

Good luck with the rehab Myles. Nothing worse than having that monkey on your back man. As negative as it is, it's part of a journey, and one you'll build incredible internal strength from when you make it through.

Respect.

Many thanks for the support, Mick. I have had to really try to conceptualize the idea of softening my ego, and I am completely lost, so this is something that I have been told will help.

well that's the last thing I want. Thanks for the warning.

That wasn't a warning. At least I don't think it was.

I turned down an invite to Vegas, because I am taking a month off of work to go to an outpatient rehab for a helluva coke habit. I haven't mentioned anything about it on here, because I didn't want to bring something like that to a proper tattoo discussion, and it wasn't really needed. But, now that I am actually having good thoughts and actions towards getting help, I feel it's okay to say something to the rad people of LST who have shown me so much love and support in my tattoo endeavours. I'm definitely struggling, and I really am in deep with it all, but I have my older sister who is my best friend supporting me in all this, and I think it's going to stick. I know of one other LSTer who no longer posts who went through some similar stuff, and his example has crossed my mind more than once over the past couple of months. Posting here helps me, because I am an introvert, and actually putting myself out there convinces me more than it convinces others that I am actually doing something positive.

I went to the bar tonight to talk to someone who helped me with my resume a while back, and he is putting me in contact with a rather elusive tattooer for my magazine. At a time like this in my life, I am glad that tattooing exists to help me feel like I am still worth something more than having this cocaine addiction.

Bought my ticket to Lee Fields at The Fillmore next month since @CultExciter was so kind as to post his music.

Ordered the catalog for Perseverance, after some long weeks of spending way too much money on non-tattoo things.

That's my awesome struggle update.

Thanks @Graeme. I think I'll avoid booking a convention sitting and just hope I can book with her when she does a guest spot, the thought of people watching (and cameras) makes me feel anxious.

Did tattoo shops not make you anxious when you first started getting tattooed?

who the hell believes shit like this?! people are ridiculous

i can sort of see that. semen acts the same as lotion and it really softens up the skin, actually bull semen is used to make lotion so the only difference is i guess lotion you buy is more sanitary that taking it right of the cock. I mean hey, face cream is made out of human foreskins so it's not that far fetched an idea. If i didn't know better about cleanliness I'd totally do it and I'm really not all that surprised she did.

Apparently this guy.

Panthers with shorter jaws and snarls always look like Marcus Kuhn actually looks in real life to me. At least after I saw one with a flannel, headband, and face tattoos, and someone suggested that it looked like him.

So I heard back from Moore. I told him what kind of rose I want and showed him examples of his own work to explain what I mean. Like, I told him I'm interested in a flatter style with long leaves. Do you think I'm being too picky? I know they work better with some artistic freedom, but taking direction is part of the job, and I don't know how much is too much. On my first tattoo I didn't tell him to change anything, although now I kind of wish the other back leg was visible, but it's not a big deal.

Noah has a variety of different things he does with his roses, so I think a little direction like you suggested is not too much control. As for your kitsune, it would have probably made very little sense to have the other hind leg visible with the way the fox is moving. It looks great!

Also, the spikes in the back are fins!

If you posted this elsewhere, I must have missed it, but who did the tattoo?

My snake is finally healed. There is hope, people!

Rad how you can see the reference that Chad K. used for @jskidder 's tattoo on the last page. Thanks for posting, @Wilhell .

Trying to get a rose from Noah J. Moore but haven't gotten a response for about a day, wondering how much longer I should wait before sending another email.

Not sure where you are getting tattooed, but you might want to call the shop, either Old Souls or wherever he's tattooing. Give it a few more days. I just got a text back from a tattooer today after texting him late last week. Also heard of tattooers emailing back a year later. Most will get back to you within a week or two, though. On the other hand, calling the shop is easy.

He's the Pelican of dragons! hahaa

Awesome octopus, @scubaron .

Missed a call for work tonight, because I didn't know the number that was calling and didn't want to answer. Called it back later only to find out that it was the third line at work that I don't have saved to my phone.

Car rose morph.

Matt Howse made this one (saw it on Our Endless Days):